Three years ago I sat down at my dining room table, exhausted, drained and desperate. Desperate for sleep. Desperate for relief. Desperate for help.Desperate to just be able to eat lunch without being interrupted. Everything seemed impossible. I was so unprepared for motherhood.
I questioned every decision I made. I wanted to know what to expect next. I brought books, I googled constantly and yet there were no answers. So I did what I do when I feel lost, I started to write. I wanted to write down all that I was experiencing, all that was happening, so that next time around I would know. I would have an idea, a clue how I made it through.
And those first few months of motherhood were lonely. A cold snowy winter much like this one, we were always at home.
Three years ago seems like a lifetime ago. I’m not the mother I was then, I’m more comfortable with it all. Three years ago when I started blogging I felt so alone. And blogging became my outlet, my resource, my community. It’s amazing what a little blog can do. It can connect you with old friends, it can help you make new ones, it can bring up conversations you never thought you would have. It can help you realize that you have much more in common than you every imagined. It led me to a group of moms, friends, and bloggers who I can go to for advice and who I can whine too and who I can share my joys with.
This space may still be small. It may never go viral. It may not be as novel and note-worthy as I thought it was when I started, before I realized that mommy-blogs were a dime a dozen. But three years ago this space became my outlet and continues to be a space of my own where I can write, remember and connect.
And I hope that it continues to grow, little by little. And I hope that each of you has found something here that has made you smile, laugh, cry or say “me too”. And I hope that you continue to follow me here, on this journey through motherhood. Cheers to 3 years of Wine in Mom.
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